SWEATY SUCCESS!!

I sweated to the oldies!!

 OK, not oldies - actually some pretty cool techno/mod hiphop beat - pretty cool for a yoga class...

 

Buggy Item #2 - CHECK THAT BITCH OFF!

Hot yoga was FREAKING AWESOME.  Just know that there's no cheesy cracks here about stinky old men or queefing (anyone who's ever attended a yoga class, you praaaaabably know what I'm talking about!!)

I wage parking war, once again, only to run into the studio with 30 seconds to spare to tell the receptionist their parking sucks (which I'm sure she seriously already knew) and be told "Oh but you know about the parking lot behind our studio, right?"

10...9...8...7... This is SUPPOSED to be calming!!

Ok so I successfully get the Groupon redeemed, and enter Hades.

It is HOT.  So hot that before I can even get my mat unrolled, I am "glistening" with sweat. 

A quick glance around tells me that almost everyone in there (except the instructor) is probably under 30 - must be a hip place! *Cue the techno-vibe jams...

We start cranking through some poses - deep lung to Warrior One to Warrior Two to chattarunga (a spelling genius yogi I'm not...) to Downward Dog to deep lung - you get the idea...

At about the time I'm thinking, holy baJesus I can feel my shins starting to drip, the cool "I-act-and-feel-much-younger-than-I-am" instructor asks, "Is it hot enough in here?! Come on, let's sweat this shit out!"

And cranks it to 104 degrees.

This is no Arizona desert dry heat either - they make sure to keep humidity at around 70%. 

I suprise myself in my ability to keep up with the positions - and only confuse Utkatasana (chair pose, and I SO copy&pasted that word lol) with Chaturanga once...awkward...

Chair Pose...                              Chattarunga (and that's so what I look like doing this. lol)

It's as we're lying in Corpse Position at the very end (basically just flat on your back, trying to not die from dehydration) that the instructor starts waxing philsophically and gives her Yogi Vibes.

I lay there with my eyes close, heart racing and feeling SO FREAKING ALIVE, and hear this:

"Remember this place where you are now.  This high that you feel.  Remember this so you can always come back here."

We roll over, as instructed, to lie in fetal position and her next words ring in my head over and over.

"Nothing has to change, nothing is wrong."

I feel like the words are for me alone.  Even though I've caught the sh*t end of the stick lately, nothing is wrong with me - with us.   I sit up and face forward for an exchange of "namastes" and feel - I feel like everything will be ok...

The instructor requests of us that "when you lose your high, you just get your ass back here for some more."

See YOU next Thursday night!!!

*sneak preview for just-improvised Buggy Item #3 - dinner and drinks at a Moroccan/MiddleEastern restaurant tonight - belly dancers galore!!

Buggy Item #2... Take Two...

Miserable and utter FAIL last night trying to get to my first class of hot yoga...

And by "try" I do not mean that I just thought about going and didn't make it. 
By "try" I mean that I got to the studio with 15 minutes extra to redeem Groupon, get changed, and be in place by start of class (you know how they get after class has started - DO NOT DISTURB THE YOGIS!!)

I ended up driving up and down the block looking for parking in near TEARS (I have a feeling the tears were caused by more than just lack of parking in urban streets...) and cursing like a sailor at every parked car. 

"Why should YOU get that parking spot, bitch?!?  You probably didn't even work for it! You probably just coasted by and said, hey that looks like a good place to park - look how easy this is!  Well F*ck you! I'm working hard as shit and there's not a single godd*mn spot in a 2 mile radius! WHAT THE F*CK!"

Like I said, this meltdown was probably a little bigger than just lack of empty white lines... and by a little I mean ALOT.

But two pieces of good news!
1 - I am getting back on that parking horse! (you know - getting back in the saddle?)
Hot Yoga take two tonight!  I am approaching it with some experience and thought now - the class I tried to attend yesterday was at 5:45 (duh - all these stoopid cars probably belong to people at work, or just out of work running errands)
My hypothesis is that by the 7:45 class tonight, chaos in the streets should have died down and there will be at least ONE parking spot in walking distance.  So back to hydrating today in preparation (I danced into my house last night from all the extra water sloshing around in my bladder...)

2 - This lady's ovulated ON TIME after the miscarraige!  This is VERY good news considering that before the cycle that gave us our BFP*, I'm pretty sure I hadn't ovulated for about 3 months, during which I got periods every 14-16 days (Tampax, I'm expecting a kick-back here!)  
((and by "on time" I mean the same CD as our BFP cycle - CD20 - whew!))

So we've gotten past the first step in getting back to TTC - now we're going to chart this cycle to AF* to try to figure out what the hell a normal cycle looks like for me!



* BFP - Big Fat Positive (on home pregnancy test)
* AF - Aunt Flo

Catching Up!

I think I'm going to end up a M-F blogger =) weekends lately are just too full for me to sit down at my computer!  so for a brief BUGGY ITEM #1 (and #2) recap, then I will return you to normally scheduled programming...

BFF date night on Friday was great, even though my friend, D, was on antibiotics for a lower GI infection (she insisted on keeping our date, love her for it - I think she knew I really needed to see her... talked out loud for the first time about the miscarriage, and while I had to stop at one point to cry, I really think it helped... E thinks so too, and thinks I should keep trying to talk about it with friends, so dinner night Friday with O!)

Buggy List item #1 - I tried two martinis that I have never had before (here or elsewhere!) and mmmmm they were yummy =)

 The first was their "Sparking Pink" - a martini.  I'm not usually a fan of sweet martinis, so I had my reserves - but that's what this list is all about, getting out and trying new things! Sparking Pink was:

exclusiv vodka, st. germain elderflower liqueur, pink

grapefruit juice with a champagne float

The second was "Fig Dream" - also a martini, and I can't find the description as it was a brand new menu item, but it had Fig vodka!  Also yummy too, and my friend D, after hearing of the Buggy List and the reason for straying from my tried-and-true Lychee-tini, sipped both and being a fan of sweet drinks, still loooooved these two!

ONWARD to Buggy List item #2 - I have officially purchased a Groupon for 10 sessions of Hot Yoga.  

I am definitely excited to try this, but I have this niggling feeling that winter, with a nice 20degrees to greet you at the door, might have been the best time to try this...

First class scheduled for Friday night!!!  (I keeping thinking of those commercials for a Zumba game for Xbox/PS3/Wii where the girls are all hot, and glistening and hair nicely styled - what we all WISH we looked like while working out!!) 

You think you look like this:

You REALLY look like this:

back to regular programming...

Memorials...

Every Memorial Day, my husband E stands with the rest of the town's firefighters for outdoor services from 8am until noon.   Because they're required to wear full dress uniforms, he almost always comes home DRENCHED in sweat (which is fun because the uniforms are, of course, dry clean only!)

And even as I complain of the extra time and expenses a dry clean uniform requires, I forget what the holiday is all about.

Today is  a MEMORIAL to all those who have fought (and died) for us.  Each year, the services memorialize the losses we've suffered as a town: fire department, EMS, police department - 2 of these 3 are volunteer.  We've only had one active line-of-duty death in the past 6 years in the fire department.  My husband, and his entire company, were very close to the fire fighter and still dedicate (even throughout the year) numerous toasts and barbeques to "L."

I sit here today and remind myself that these men and women we are remembering and honoring today, my husband included, VOLUNTEER themselves for this dangerous job.  It's an incredible and incredibly selfless thing to do.

I don't think I can fully express it, but I am so so gratefuly that there are people in the world like you!